Posted by: thomasvision on
It's about 1:05 AM EST on Friday July 23rd. The only reason I remember this site is because after a year someone has joined my Team and since I was a captain I recieved the notification. My Birthday is on Sunday; I will be turning 30. A litte more than a year ago I joined this site and I was 237 lbs. I lost weight, joined a team, became the captain, lost more weight, abandoned this site and my team and eventually got down to 209 lbs on February 19th, 2010. That was just 6 months ago right? Yep, 6 months ago I was in the best shape of my adult life. I have never come so close to getting under 200 lbs for 10 YEARS. So why on July 23rd and I back to 250 lbs and in the worst shape of my life?
I don't even know how to start trying again. I don't even know if I should. When I checked out this site again tonight I did not do so with the expectation of writing this. I just wanted to see how much I weighed two years ago. After I seen my start weight on this site (which was 237lbs) I slowly walked up stairs and weighed myself. I closed my eye because I knew the result was going to be bad. I seen 250 on the display and had to hold back the tears.
When I came so close to my Goal and fell even further away from it in less than 6 months how do I start again? I don't want my 30's to be like my 20's. But I have lost hope. I don't know how to find my pulse.
