Posted by: jelly85 on
DD SELF CHALLENGE: My A-ha Moment
I had a couple A-ha moments that contributed to me jumping on the time to get healthy train. The first was I bumped into some people who I had gone to high school with and they were shocked at how much weight I had put on. I had never thought about it but I had put on close to 100 pounds since I graduated from high school. Next I was sitting on a train and I turned to look out the window and I saw my reflect in the window of me sitting and I was shock and slightly grossed out at how "wide" I looked in the reflection. Not make the situation worse I was eating a bag of chips when I saw the reflection. Another moment was when my boyfriend told me that he was still very much a attracted to my but was losing that physical attraction he had for me. It was a big different for him, since when he started dating me I was 120 pounds and then all of a sudden here I was weighing 224 pounds. No one wants to hear that the person they love is not as physically attracted to them like they once were.
After Derek told me this, I got really depressed and began eating even more since I was upset. Then one day as I was sitting down eating a tub of Ben and Jerry's Chunky Monkey I got really mad at myself. I was mad that I was allowing myself to get even fatter then I already was. I sad and shamed that I was overweight and unattractive and here I was eating a tub of ice cream.
That is when I set out on the journey I am not on. All I am doing at this point in time is eating as healthy as possible, planning all my food, walking everywhere as much as possible, I am starting a running program since that is something I use to love doing, and lastly am using my Wii fit for atleast an hour a day. So far it was been going well but it is hardwork and I understand that.
