The Biggest Loser League

Well, I finally met the man of my dreams and he proposed to me on our first year anniversary.  He has been through alot with me, medically, AND putting up with my crabbiness about my weight gain.  He has been so supportive and has always shown me the love, even when I gained 40 more pounds then when we first met.  He still loves me unconditionally and tells me I am beautiful and sexy every day...however, I want to continue my weightloss journey because now I have a wedding plan, and a dress to look beautiful in.  I know he loves me no matter what, but I want to happy for ME.  I want to feel good for ME.  I want to love ME!!!  I have waited a long time to be someone'w wife and I finally am getting wish.  My honey is the most caring, affectionate, mushy man.  He wears his heart on his sleeve and I love it!  I want to compliment him more with being slimmer.  I want to look good for him, and not just myself.  

Sadly, I have let my weight gain make me become someone I am not.  I am always angry at everyone....I am sad all the time.  I have let my relationship with my teen daughter become something I never imagined.  I have let myself down in so many ways and it all goes back to the weight.  it is because I am so angry with myself that I stopped living and enjoying my life.  All I focus on now is how sad I am and that I feel like that whale I felt like a few years ago.  I so want to change myself and start seeing those numbers fall on the scale.