Posted by: knappkin on
I'm having a rough week so I haven't been blogging much. Don't worry, I'm still here somewhat.. still checking the boards. Just not being a very active member in blogs or responses. If I haven't gotten to you, I am sorry. I've been dealing with crappy family issues the last couple of days and it came down kinda hard on me today. I have to make a decision that I don't want to make and it's going to effect relationships w/in my family. Who we effect depends on what me and my husband decide. I hate this. I have been an emotional wreck all day long. Just walking around in a fog, not really being able to think about anything, while at the same time, not being able to stop thinking. Does that make sense? I've wanted nothing more than to curl up in a ball and sleep and eat. Just sleep the day away and eat wonderfully tastey things like chocolate, ice cream, peanut butter, cookies, etc. I will say that despite these feelings, I've resisted. I have kept myself from retiring to my bed all day and I have been staying with my program and only eating healthy foods. I am really proud of myself because as long as I've been on this journey, this is the first time I have been pushed this far into emtional distress that I was considering just giving in, but I held strong. On the other hand, exercise is a different story. I haven't done ANYTHING all day. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I am too drained. At one point I came close, but then began discussing my problem w/ my sil, and was getting support from her, so exercise just kinda got away from me. I didn't even have the energy to cook dinner, which I always do. Luckily, we had practically ready made lettuce wraps on hand. I'm just in a funk and decided to blog about. If you're still reading this... thanks for letting me vent. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
