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Friday, January 30th, 2009, 1:52 am

I'm having a rough week so I haven't been blogging much. Don't worry, I'm still here somewhat.. still checking the boards. Just not being a very active member in blogs or responses. If I haven't gotten to you, I am sorry. I've been dealing with crappy family issues the last couple of days and it came down kinda hard on me today. I have to make a decision that I don't want to make and it's going to effect relationships w/in my family. Who we effect depends on what me and my husband decide. I hate this. I have been an emotional wreck all day long. Just walking around in a fog, not really being able to think about anything, while at the same time, not being able to stop thinking. Does that make sense? I've wanted nothing more than to curl up in a ball and sleep and eat. Just sleep the day away and eat wonderfully tastey things like chocolate, ice cream, peanut butter, cookies, etc. I will say that despite these feelings, I've resisted. I have kept myself from retiring to my bed all day and I have been staying with my program and only eating healthy foods. I am really proud of myself because as long as I've been on this journey, this is the first time I have been pushed this far into emtional distress that I was considering just giving in, but I held strong. On the other hand, exercise is a different story. I haven't done ANYTHING all day. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I am too drained. At one point I came close, but then began discussing my problem w/ my sil, and was getting support from her, so exercise just kinda got away from me. I didn't even have the energy to cook dinner, which I always do. Luckily, we had practically ready made lettuce wraps on hand. I'm just in a funk and decided to blog about. If you're still reading this... thanks for letting me vent. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

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You Lift Me Up Challenge #3

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Saturday, January 24th, 2009, 3:30 am

Who Inspires You?

Well, obviously a huge part of what inspires me is The Biggest Loser. Everything I can get out of it really. The people, the trainers, the exercise videos, the books. And of course, The Biggest Loser League!!! I love it here. I get inspired just by coming to this site, by hearing everyone's stories, being a part of their journeys, doing challenges, building friendships, interacting, getting advice and encouragement, and being a part of The Chubby Network. Everyday I feel inspired being here. With the show, I was epecially inspired by Kristin this week. She is a bigger girl, like me, and she was able to keep jumping that board right up until the end. I was so proud and happy for her. Really, TBL inspires me in countless ways. I am also inspired by anyone who has taken steps to a healthier lifestyle, and anyone that supports people who do. I know how difficult it is. I am inspired by my mom who has done a lot of dieting in the past and is wiser for it and able to give me tips and advice. I am inspired by my husband who supports and loves me no matter what and who has overcome so much hardship and pain in his life and came out on the other end stronger, healthier, happier, and a better person. I am also insired by myself because I never thought I would make it even this far. I am healthier, I have more energy, I feel happier, I have more confidence, and I have lost weight. I try to help whoever I can, and I am determined to reach my goals! Nothing can stop me but me, and I can't let myself!

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Thursday, January 22nd, 2009, 3:29 am

PORTION DISTORTION- mini challenge

I did find out recently how much portion sizes have increased in that last few decades. I read an article about someone who bought a house from the 50's, went to put their dishes away in the cabinets, and were frustrated to find out that they didn't fit. They wondered who would make cabintes that didn't fit average size dishes! They did some research and discovered that an average size plate then, is more like our salad plate now. That is how much portions have grown here. And that is mostly in the US. In other countries, they still have smaller portions. No wonder our obesity rate is so high! Who the hell kept gradually increasing our plates!? I didn't do so well on the first portions quiz, but I did much better on the second one. It is very interesting to see the actual size differences of each item. CRAZY!

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MY BIRTHDAY!!!

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Thursday, January 22nd, 2009, 1:54 am

Yay!!! Today was my birthday! Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes, although I plan on visiting your pages personally to thank you! I had a wonderul day! My husband works nights, so I woke up this morning to him getting home from work and giving me my present. A lap top. WooHoo! Then my mom came over and gave me this beautiful China set that I mentioned once that I wanted. I can't believe she remembered! I practically forgot about it! It is absolutely gorgeous! My SIL had the day off from work and my bro called in sick (what a goober!), so we spent the day together. My bro and SIL gave me their present. Guess what it was?! Jillian Michales' Fitness Ultimatum 2009 for wii and Jillian's 30 Day Shred!!! OMG! I am sooo happy! Basically, they are kicking my butt for my bday. LOL! So, after presents and stuff we got ready to go out. Except for the hubby who has to work tonight too, dang it! We ran a couple of errands, then we all went out to lunch. My mom treated me, how lovely! After lunch, we went bowling. I haven't been in awhile so I was NOT at the top of my game, and trust me, I wasn't all that great to begin with. Hee hee. But I think we were all having that problem. It was super fun anyways! I really need to go back soon. After bowling, we went back to the house and hung at my bro's. Then my mom had to leave :o( Later, my SIL pushed me into working out to BL Boot Camp w/ Bob. Gotta love the home AP's too! The bro ended up cookin me dinner tonight, which was awesome! I am usually the one cooking everyone dinner, so it was super nice to get to sit back and relax on my bday and just enjoy what I was eating. So, overall I had the nicest, best, most wonderful bday! It was down to earth and I got to spend it with my family. The only thing that would have made it better would've been if my hubby could have spent the whole day with me. But I exercised and I ate healthy all day, except for the ONE piece of bday cake that I had for dessert. It was so chocolatey, sweet, and delicious. Mmmmmm...

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Let it Out

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Tuesday, January 20th, 2009, 8:10 pm

My biggest concern lately is that I don't have a job. I had this fantastic job as a Youth Care Counselor and Teacher's Aid at a residential treatment facility for Severely Emotionally Disturbed kids, but the organization had problems with funding and had to be shut down. I have been out of work for the past 6 months. At first, I really needed a break and took the time to really find myself. Getting laid off actually helped me to begin this journey and take care of myself better. For the last several months, I have been more actively looking for work, but it has been a struggle. I don't want to do the same thing I was doing and have to start from the ground up again. But, alot of things I am interested in require a graduate degree and I only have my B.A. I am going to apply for graduate school, but in the mean time, I still need a job. Things have been okay because I have been on unemployment, but that is about to run out for me. I also refuse to settle in a job that I don't like. It's depressing and I won't do that to myself again. In the mean time, I will just keep looking and hoping for the best, but it is STRESSING ME OUT!!! AARGHH!

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