Posted by: Smirk on
I'm setting Biggest loser league as my home page.It is Nov 2, 2009. I weigh around 210 pounds, probably closer to 215, really.
After seeing the photos taken of me this past weekend, I have finally had enough. Even after loosing 15 pounds, I am still ashamed of my body, so I'm going to start some work on confidence, and of course weight loss.
I don't really know when this came to be, but I feel like I am not able to fully show people my personality (people who know me will think thats crazy, but its true) There is so much more that I have to give. More energy, more leadership, more talent, more fun.. and I'm simply hiding it because I feel like people won't see past my body. Maybe thats not fair to others, but its the way I feel.
I mean, how sad is it that literally NO ONE in this city knows that I'm a singer? It used to be my whole life, and now it's like some secret that I can't seem to share with anyone, all because of the way I look at myself. It makes me feel really shallow, when I look at it subjectively like this.
I guess this will be a journey to find a bit of faith in myself, and hopefully some faith in others, too.
I'm giving myself a challenge of singing for someone this week. I think it will probablybe my boyfriend. He is amazingly supportive. I feel really comfortabe, and probably the most confident around him, out of all of my friends here in Halifax. We'll see how it goes.
