The Biggest Loser League

First off, I'd like to say that I'm glad to see some of you ladies really using the site. I think we may have something good a brewing here 

Oh Boy, This weekend was a bit of a disaster for me. I wasn't on TBLL at all, because I went into my school's emergency health center on Friday, and it turns out I have a severe bladder infection. Owwwie. All I wanted to eat was comfort foods, and laying in bed almost all day Saturday got me ZERO exercise. I did help my boyfriend paint his kitchen on Sunday, though, so that was a bit of physical activity.. wouldn't call it a workout, though. :(  I'm feeling motivated now, and my antibiotics have almost kicked this infection, so I'm starting this week with a positive attitude, and a smile on my face. 

A little bit about myself.

I'm Ashley, I'm 21. I study Psychology and am currently working toward getting my degree as well as my HR certifications. I love working with people, being social, and geting out and doing things. I love to travel, and have a dream of buying an airstream with my boyfriend and traveling around the continent in an airstream caravan like they used to back in the day.

 Music is probably the biggest entity in my life. I love punk rock and most of its subgenres, as well as country, rock and roll, and even some pop here and there. (But I do try to stay away from it, because there is always the eternal mystery: "do people listen to pop music because they're miserable, or are people miserable because they listen to pop music?" ... for all of you High Fidelity fans out there)

 Beyond that, I'm a fairly normal overweight twenty something. I'm super nice, I have a great attitude, I just let my health get away from me somewhere along the line, while I was embracing the joys of being in university. People talk about the freshman 15... mine was more like a freshman forty. Eesh. I'm hoping to drop the pounds I've gained, and get back down to a weight where I can look the way I feel; energetic, quirky, and beautiful. 

I hope to soon be able to express these thing outwardly, because I've been having a lot of confidence issues over the past few years.  Its getting better everyday, my boyfriend is endlessly supportive, and my friends make me feel accepted. Somewhere on the inside, though, my self image hits a bit of a speed bump, and still doesn't allow me to be all I can be. I'm really hoping to work through that.

 We'll see ^_^

I'm setting Biggest loser league as my home page.It is Nov 2, 2009. I weigh around 210 pounds, probably closer to 215, really. 

After seeing the photos taken of me this past weekend, I have finally had enough. Even after loosing 15 pounds, I am still ashamed of my body, so I'm going to start some work on confidence, and of course weight loss.

I don't really know when this came to be, but I feel like I am not able to fully show people my personality (people who know me will think thats crazy, but its true) There is so much more that I have to give. More energy, more leadership, more talent, more fun.. and I'm simply hiding it because I feel like people won't see past my body.  Maybe thats not fair to others, but its the way I feel.

I mean, how sad is it that literally NO ONE in this city knows that I'm a singer? It used to be my whole life, and now it's like some secret that I can't seem to share with anyone, all because of the way I look at myself.  It makes me feel really shallow, when I look at it subjectively like this.

 I guess this will be a journey to find a bit of faith in myself, and hopefully some faith in others, too.

 I'm giving myself a challenge of singing for someone this week. I think it will probablybe my boyfriend. He is amazingly supportive. I feel really comfortabe, and probably the most confident around him, out of all of my friends here in Halifax. We'll see how it goes.