So I am totally frustrated and close to throwing in the towel. When I do come to the site it is so slow, links broke and just doesn't work properly that it only adds to my frustration. Once again the sites weekly challenges aren't working, an original email won't go through.
Last week was tough. Going through totes after tote of papers. Handed in more papers at the end of the week still not sure if they will accept anything. DH was helping me go through them. Appears that we had gone through them all. So now I am trying to condense and make more room to store when I think I might have found the connection between the two mortgages that I need. I have it to submit on Monday. Still not the discharge paper but a note connecting the two banks with an account number. I have never worked so hard on this.
Bad week overall and I just totally binged. Pizza, beer, chips, dip, buttered popcorn, chocolate, you name it. Very disappointed in myself as I haven't binged like this in a long time. Just didn't care at the time either and there was no stopping me. Feeling really bad and regretful today for a week of bad choices. I was going to blog today and then do my challenges. So I was thinking of what motivation did I need and what I could share. Since the challenge isn't working, which in this case may be a good thing, I have decided to post here for all to read. This weekend I just thought about giving up. Who cares anyway? I can't get to the 220s so why keep trying. I am tired of trying, almost reaching it, but end of failing. So after beating myself up and deciding wether to quite or not I thought about all of my peeps here and the fact that I really want and need a better life for me and my family. Here is the quote that I thought of to share.
Its when you start to think about giving up that you need the strength to dig deep within yourself and find the motivation and desire to keep going forward! = )
I really think the BLL, my peeps, and my family are my motivators for not letting me give up. Logging in and reading the e-mails and comments were just great. My family and friends noticing my changes, even better. So I had a bad day, well ok week, time to pull myself up and keep going.