The Biggest Loser League

Off to a good week. Stayed within points today. No exercise though. Its winter and not at the mall everyday as before so even walking has suffered. Soon will be back to getting more time for fun.

Just a short blog but will try to stop in before the show tomorrow.

So I am totally frustrated and close to throwing in the towel. When I do come to the site it is so slow, links broke and just doesn't work properly that it only adds to my frustration. Once again the sites weekly challenges aren't working, an  original email won't go through.

Last week was tough. Going through totes after tote of papers. Handed in more papers at the end of the week still not sure if they will accept anything. DH was helping me go through them. Appears that we had gone through them all. So now I am trying to condense and make more room to store when I think I might have found the connection   between the two mortgages that I need. I have it to submit on Monday. Still not the discharge paper but a note connecting the two banks with an account number. I have never worked so hard on this. 

Bad week overall and I just totally binged. Pizza, beer, chips, dip, buttered popcorn, chocolate, you name it. Very disappointed in myself as I haven't binged like this in a long time. Just didn't care at the time either and there was no stopping me. Feeling really bad and regretful today for a week of bad choices. I was going to blog today and then do my challenges. So I was thinking of what motivation did I need and what I could share. Since the challenge isn't working, which in this case may be a good thing, I have decided to post here for all to read. This weekend I just thought about giving up. Who cares anyway? I can't get to the 220s so why keep trying. I am tired of trying, almost reaching it, but end of failing. So after beating myself up and deciding wether to quite or not I thought about all of my peeps here and the fact that I really want and need a better life for me and my family. Here is the quote that I thought of to share.

Its when you start to think about giving up that you need the strength to dig deep within yourself and find the motivation and desire to keep going forward!  = )

I really think the BLL, my peeps, and my family are my motivators for not letting me give up. Logging in and reading the e-mails and comments were just great. My family and friends noticing my changes, even better. So I had a bad day, well ok week, time to pull myself up and keep going.

So I have alot of catching up to do. Where have I been??  Where haven't I been is more like it. So on Wednesday and Thursday last week I was busy packing to take off with DH for the weekend. Friday night we left for Vermont. Where we went was about 3 1/2 hrs away. Normally people want warmer weather...we went to colder. No I a not crazy, well ok maybe a little. LOL  We just wanted to get away and there was so much to do in the area where we were. Although we were just a few doors down from the ski resort we didn't go skiing. Spend some great time walking in several shops and the weather was great. 10 degrees colder up on the mountain though. Oh it was beautiful. Snow capped mountains. So I live in the Adirondack Mountains and you would thinkg so whats the big deal. It was amazing. Colors and just overall scenery was breath taking. DH and I stayed at a cut B&B. It was the Anniversary of the day we met on Friday not to mention Valentines Day weekend.

So we arrived home on Sunday and everyone wanted to invite friends over so we spent time with everyone. Monday was a great holiday time off.  My DN and I went shopping and she picked out a few bathing suits for Disney.

So I have been going crazy looking for paperwork. We paid off a second mortgage 10 years ago. We are selling the house and found they never discharged the mortgage. The company had about 4 DBAs and having trouble getting numbers to match. The business closed their doors at the end of January and yanked my chain for 6 weeks refusing to return calls and even answer the phone. I am so frustrated and just want this headache gone. I feel like I have become a detective in trying to research what to do. Sometimes it pays to keep things. I have been trying to get better at getting rid of things but you just never know when you may need something. Sure enough I have had to go through 20 years of papers looking for anything and I mean anything to prove I paid this off. I have submitted about 10 different pieces of paper and the title company still will not accept it. Isn't my credit report indicating paid next to the lender with the date of originial mortgage enough??? NOT!  Sorry but I have spent the last few days going through every box of papers I own and still nothing they will take. UGH!!!!

So next on the agenda is that today was my last day at my job. I was working on my 6th year of a grant. I just loved my job but the uncertainty of a grant is a little nerve racking especially with this economy. So I handed in my keys and start the new job tomorrow. Luckily I will still be working with many of the same people, just in a different office and location and in a different capacity.

So tonight its late but I am finally able to log on and blog. I have been so so with my diet as I did indulge over the weekend and today. I had pizza and beer. Also no exercise accept my daily walk. No time for the Wii since I think it was Friday am. I will do my best to work my way to everyone so please be patient. Hope to see you soon!  = )

Thanks to my 3 DSs and niece who are always looking to play the Wii with me.

Thanks to DH for being him and for loving me just the way I am!

Thanks to all my BLLfamily for being here and motivating me when I need it most.

Thanks to my SILs for noticing when I lose a few lbs!

15 min walk

15 min wii fit

broccoli/cauliflower, shrimp, crabmeat with strawberries and piece of chocolate. Glass of wine.

banana

southbeach chicken & veggie pizza, salad, rasp vin dressing